Wednesday, November 19, 2014

A Wednesday in November

So I was driving down the road early this morning before work, on my way to take Cam to my grandparents house, and everything just seemed to stop.  The moment froze long enough for me to sweetly etch it into my memory for the long keep (I hope).  
Silvester's heater was working overtime to fight the 11 degree chill outside his doors, leaves were twirling around in front of him as we drove alone the dark road.  Cam was calling for his" "fra fryer" (pacifier), it started off soft and then became a fierce roar followed by "mommy, mommy," and "pease, pease" (please). Honor sat quietly staring at Cam for once in her puppy life, all while my Christmas music softly murmured in the back ground.   I smiled quietly to myself and, though cliche, realized these truly are the days.  The ones I never want to forget.  The days that I know I will always want to relive to get that warm and fuzzy feeling back again.  Okay, maybe I want to forget my lion mane hairday, but other than that...what precious moments I hurry through every. single. day.
It's times like reading a book, giggling over putting one of Cam's play hats on Honor, or chasing Cam in a game of "I'm gonna getcha!" that I know God reminds me of why the stress is worth it.  Missing Cade, waking up early, going to bed late, and running around like a headless chicken actually end up making sense when you reflect on the big picture and have faith that all the loose ends will tie up soon.

As we're a mere week away from Thanksgiving, I can't help but think about how bad I am to rush through every part of the day, including failing to take time to notice moments like this.  

I've got to get this over with, hurry here, and make sure I do this before I do that...completely only surviving life on autopilot.  Sometimes I let work and the other things I am consumed with generate an anxious feeling of making it all seem impossible.  Which then almost always dampens my spirits and overwhelms me enough to give up on the day and fall asleep.  Yep, that and this daylight savings time hoop-la are to blame for making me take naps and go to sleep by 8pm.  It's enough to make a person feel crazy and sad all at the same time!  

I have good news though.  My God says all things are possible through him and that he will never put more on us than we can handle.  I think I am going to trust Him with that little reminder and live in the moment more as I so long to do.  I think this is a great area for us mommies to lift one another up.  Do you ever feel overwhelmed and like you can't do it all?  Do you ever think... man, I wish she would just shut up?  Okay, okay.  I have rambled enough.  I will leave you with this.  There is no place better to go than to the rock!  Care to join me in praying over this?:}  Share comments/requests/stories/bad hairdays below...
Take no thought for your life, what ye shall eat; neither for the body, what ye shall put on. 23The life is more than meat, and the body is more than raiment. 24Consider the ravens: for they neither sow nor reap; which neither have storehouse nor barn; and God feedeth them: how much more are ye better than the fowls? 25And which of you with taking thought can add to his stature one cubit? 26If ye then be not able to do that thing which is least, why take ye thought for the rest? 27Consider the lilies how they grow: they toil not, they spin not; and yet I say unto you, that Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. 28If then God so clothe the grass, which is to day in the field, and to morrow is cast into the oven; how much more will he clothe you, O ye of little faith? 29And seek not ye what ye shall eat, or what ye shall drink, neither be ye of doubtful mind.30For all these things do the nations of the world seek after: and your Father knoweth that ye have need of these things. 31But rather seek ye the kingdom of God; and all these things shall be added unto you.32Fear not, little flock; for it is your Father's good pleasure to give you the kingdom.  Matthew 6:22-32