I literally woke up this morning with a feeling of complete failure.
I EVEN a b o u t found myself googling "how to not let outside stress make you a bad mom."
This week I have had a headache every single day.
The boys have been on another level of crazy & I feel like all I am doing is telling them to stop, quit, or threaten them with a last request.
SEE BELOW.
I have had a lot to accomplish in preparation for starting work next month (orientation, staff meetings, drug/background checks, switching state license), Cam beginning KINDERGARTEN & life is a bit wild at the moment. Blessed, blessed, blessed... but wild!
I absolutely despise when it feels like we haven't had good quality time together as a family throughout the week- like the only interaction we've had is discipline or the overwhelming moments that rob us of the people God created us to be!
Ever have those times?
Would you know, as soon as the desire to "Google answers" kicked in...
The living God in my heart reminded me of just who I can have in control.
With tears I thought- Nope. I'm going to give ALL of this to God.
Instead of turning to the world wide web, trying to fix everything on my own, with a feeling of helplessness (how crazy am I?), I 'm going to turn to God's LIVING word & the power of prayer.
In the little things (like this), & the big things (sickness, loss)...
I have such peace & joy knowing I have this forever in my heart.
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.
Tomorrow (or maybe after I get the hang of my new job & our new life that comes with it) I know this season of worry & stress will leave, but until then, I may just be "living on a prayer :)"
On to my "little happy's" of the last TWO weeks:
(I'm behind!)
One.
Finding Waldo + Sharkweek = Downtown Fun
One thing I love about our new city is all there is to do for FREE with your family. We have had such a blast this summer & I'm looking forward to all fall & the holiday's have to offer.
Two. Marking off the Summer Hope To's
Our list is slowly, but surely, filling up with little check marked boxes.
We have had one of the sweetest summers ever, so far... from celebrating a trip with great Grandma Muriel + BB's birthday at the lake, to visiting the sunsphere (or "farkly ball" to us;), & making new memories with a brand new neighborhood supper club-it is definitely one we will never forget.
We've been lazy this week-the only request from the boys has been the mall playground.
4/5 days for the record.
We still have to plant pumpkins & keep our eyes peeled for that sneaky ice cream truck.
Three. Polar Bear Frozen Hot Chocolates
Remember when I said I wanted to do this? Well, we did it!
And if the frozen HC's at Serendipity in NYC take anything like this did...
I'm adding that to my bucket list for my next trip.
To remind you, this recipe is from Southern Living!
Four. Baby Fever
Just kidding. Did you read above? Okay, lying again. No, nothing will ever deter my love for babies. THAT SMELL. Totally NOT who I was before becoming a mama, but I had no idea what I was missing out on! Baby Lyra is p r e c i o u s!
And seeing one of your best friends since the third grade, priceless.
Endless laughter:)
Five. Packing for the beach
This is one of those trips we weren't so sure we were even going to get to take with the move & all the uncertainties that brings, but I'm excited to say that we are headed for the sunshine state soon! The boys are all kinds of excited & so am I.
I just wish the Mr. could come, too...
Sorry if I bored you! This was a long one.
Have a great weekend, sweet friends!
I EVEN a b o u t found myself googling "how to not let outside stress make you a bad mom."
This week I have had a headache every single day.
The boys have been on another level of crazy & I feel like all I am doing is telling them to stop, quit, or threaten them with a last request.
SEE BELOW.
I have had a lot to accomplish in preparation for starting work next month (orientation, staff meetings, drug/background checks, switching state license), Cam beginning KINDERGARTEN & life is a bit wild at the moment. Blessed, blessed, blessed... but wild!
I absolutely despise when it feels like we haven't had good quality time together as a family throughout the week- like the only interaction we've had is discipline or the overwhelming moments that rob us of the people God created us to be!
Ever have those times?
Would you know, as soon as the desire to "Google answers" kicked in...
The living God in my heart reminded me of just who I can have in control.
With tears I thought- Nope. I'm going to give ALL of this to God.
Instead of turning to the world wide web, trying to fix everything on my own, with a feeling of helplessness (how crazy am I?), I 'm going to turn to God's LIVING word & the power of prayer.
In the little things (like this), & the big things (sickness, loss)...
I have such peace & joy knowing I have this forever in my heart.
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.
Tomorrow (or maybe after I get the hang of my new job & our new life that comes with it) I know this season of worry & stress will leave, but until then, I may just be "living on a prayer :)"
On to my "little happy's" of the last TWO weeks:
(I'm behind!)
One.
Finding Waldo + Sharkweek = Downtown Fun
One thing I love about our new city is all there is to do for FREE with your family. We have had such a blast this summer & I'm looking forward to all fall & the holiday's have to offer.
Two. Marking off the Summer Hope To's
Our list is slowly, but surely, filling up with little check marked boxes.
We have had one of the sweetest summers ever, so far... from celebrating a trip with great Grandma Muriel + BB's birthday at the lake, to visiting the sunsphere (or "farkly ball" to us;), & making new memories with a brand new neighborhood supper club-it is definitely one we will never forget.
We've been lazy this week-the only request from the boys has been the mall playground.
4/5 days for the record.
We still have to plant pumpkins & keep our eyes peeled for that sneaky ice cream truck.
Three. Polar Bear Frozen Hot Chocolates
Remember when I said I wanted to do this? Well, we did it!
And if the frozen HC's at Serendipity in NYC take anything like this did...
I'm adding that to my bucket list for my next trip.
To remind you, this recipe is from Southern Living!
Four. Baby Fever
Just kidding. Did you read above? Okay, lying again. No, nothing will ever deter my love for babies. THAT SMELL. Totally NOT who I was before becoming a mama, but I had no idea what I was missing out on! Baby Lyra is p r e c i o u s!
And seeing one of your best friends since the third grade, priceless.
Endless laughter:)
Five. Packing for the beach
This is one of those trips we weren't so sure we were even going to get to take with the move & all the uncertainties that brings, but I'm excited to say that we are headed for the sunshine state soon! The boys are all kinds of excited & so am I.
I just wish the Mr. could come, too...
Sorry if I bored you! This was a long one.
Have a great weekend, sweet friends!
By now you will be at the beach having a whale of a time (not shark of a time haha). I cannot believe how much the thread of your posts resonates with me at the moment - I wrote my week-end recap before reading your post - but the 'God over Google' thing is just what needs to become my mantra!! I totally relate to what you were saying about sometimes feeling like you are constantly on the boys' cases rather than just hanging out and having quality time - we get like that with Caspar - constantly reminding him - pick your clothes up, brush your teeth, go to bed, get off your PC.. I bet now you've got to the beach you are getting an easier time off them (hopefully!) Big Hugs - Joanne xx
Thank you, Joanne! I always enjoy your comments-you always take the time to share such thoughtful responses... so glad we can connect this way:)
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