Saturday, August 19, 2017

Second Guessing + Sleepless Nights

This post is it.  Occasionally pouring out my heart to strangers, & friends alike, since the day I start this blog.  Totally not me.  Totally not comfortable.  Or what I planned for it to be.  But here we are.
I don't know exactly why I feel compelled to share this...but I don't think I can keep on with this blog until I get all this off my mind & out of my heart.
I am ambitious by default.
My mother has always went at every interest or passion she had or that sparked, full throttle.
Pedal to the metal...sometimes playing the game with no prior knowledge or preparation as to how to win- and what to do should you win or lose.
In some ways I find this quality exciting and a positive distraction from the often daunting journey each dream requires of it's dreamer.  In others, it can be overwhelming, disheartening, & even frustrating when you always have such high hopes for things you start or do... only to allow feelings of defeat overcome you when things don't always go as planned or the way you'd hoped they would.
I find myself chasing after so many things I want to be the best I can be at, all at one time, only to feel like I fail at them all. 
Christ centered & serving.  Motherhood.  Marriage.  Work.  Interests & hobbies.
Maybe it's attributable to "too many irons in the fire?"
Whatever the reason...
It causes me to battle with feelings of inadequacy or quitting everything in one way or another, even if it's for a second or so.  Just to clarify...I say this in regard to motherhood & marriage as in...forget naps-it's too hard to fight the whiny, or forget trying to get my family all under one roof, I'll just learn to deal with the cards we've been given.  Even considering never trying anything new & just doing the expected things every human being is required to do to "exist."
And then I snap out of it & those ambitions set in again.
Don't call a mental health specialist yet, friends...
 although I probably DO need one ~ in no disrespect & all seriousness... Ha!
At least three nights this week I went to sleep (aside from worry about a family member)  determined to quit this blog, wondering how in the world we would "figure out" our lives before Cam goes to Kindergarten next year & how I will deal with how fast my two are growing up on me. 
<<in the midst of all the real problems going on in the world, I know- I eyeroll myself, too>>
Do you ever have weeks like that, though?  It's when faith has to kick in + soul searching with my Heavenly Father comes in to play, to get you through & get out of that funk & figure out how to handle everything gracefully.
Why do I do the things I do?  Why do I devote my time & attention to these things & how do I prioritize their importance in my life?  How can I avoid second guessing + sleepless nights of worry?
Take this blog for example as the most light hearted worry mentioned.  It's not that I think I am going to be a big time blogger that has thousands of followers.  Or that I think I'm an expert in any topic I ramble about.  I genuinely love to write.  I love an outlet to share my family along with creative endeavors as a way to share what I initially wanted to do for a living (interior design) before realizing I had to find something that would help to support a family. 
From this example, I continually worry someone will view my intentions are vain & selfish.
And then I realize, at the end of the day, through the mental battle of whether I should continue or not...who cares?  REALLY.  No one has to read.  No one has to care.  This is my space.  A space where I write about the people & things I love.  I make it into a huge deal & it's not! 
I did all this babbling to say...
Admirable quality or curse, I inherited it.
I wanted to share something real with you.  I love all the light hearted chatter for the most part, but it's not all a highlight reel.
And something in me this week told me I can use my sleepless-second guessing week for the good.  If God knitted the inmost of my being, he knitted this quality of ambition in me, too.  With his guidance + a size of mustard seed faith...I know that I just have to put it all in his hands & put my blinders on to the frustration + doubt I experience along the way.
Friday, August 11, 2017

Friday Favorites || 8.11.17

Lately, Cam has really become the master of interpreting one year old language.
Conley is really good at talking right now, but every now & then, there's the occasion where we look at him like what???  He's usually very persistent, & repeats himself over & over...AND over again.  But if he wasn't doing that, he'd be saying something else.  You guys, we have two children who never shut up from the minute they open their eyes to when they shut them.  All I know is they take after their daddy!  
Cam typically steps in:  "What he's saying is...blah blah blah." 
 Annnnnd 9 times out of 10 he is usually right...๐Ÿ˜‚

He's been helping Conley say the prayer & last night he was at dinner prompting Conley to repeat him.  
"Conley, say Dear Lord" 
Conley: "Dear Lerd"
"Conley, Say sank you for our trespasses..."
At least they're getting the gist of it...right??๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ™ˆ๐Ÿ˜œ
They are something else these days.  
I had to share that.  Now, to Friday Favorites!  Can you guys believe summer break is already coming to an end?  It always goes by at warp speed...

one.  favorite kid products
It's a tie between Sleepize & these reusable swim diapers! 
 I've been using both these products this beach trip, and it's so nice to not be having to keep stock of MORE(๐Ÿ˜ฑ) diapers or dealing with rashes that come with wet skin rubbing that diaper material.  This little swim diaper has been so nice!  And it was on clearance at the actual store for 6.99 rather than 9.99๐Ÿ˜˜

  I'm also excited to share, that after experimenting all summer (DRUM ROLL PLEASE) with the best oils for sleep in our house...Sleepize + cedar wood have to be considered my children's own personal sweet dream potion:)  
I think I'll even make a linen/pillow spray with it next week!  
To learn more about Young Living oils & how you can use them in your home and with your family, don't be afraid to send me a message guys! 
I won't just hook you up, but I will be there with you to help you make the most of your oils๐Ÿ˜‰

two.  favorite laugh
We were in for a few hours yesterday due to stormy weather, so we filled our time with funny stuff.  This right here!  My little brother & I totally have a picture just like be back in the 90's, y'all.

three.  favorite sweet treat
RUN, don't walk to Target!  They have the Reese's Peanut Butter Pumpkin Cups out!๐Ÿ˜

four.  favorite back to school things
My focus is all on bed routines (as I've worked the whole summer on making that better for us).  I found this little graphic on Pinterest helpful for myself (as I really need to make the most of my early mornings rather than late nights) as well as these organizational tips.  Cam is going on year two of his little dragon backpack & I love it because of it's size (perfect for Pre-Kers and durability;)  He has the smaller version!  When he's not in school, he crams it full of toys & carries it everywhere as well๐Ÿค“

five.  favorite devotional
I am halfway through this book now, & every devotion resonates so well with me.  I love how I never brush off having some Jesus time d/t "not having time", & though short, the punch is powerful.  I highly recommend this for mamas:)
Wishing you all a wonderful weekend!

Wednesday, August 9, 2017

Photo (or two) Every Hour || Beach Day 8.8.17

We are having such a great time being together on vacation!  
Here's a day full of memories to look back on one day... 
 A day in the life - summer of 2017๐Ÿ˜Ž

5 am
Up & at it!  Planning family things needed before school starts/capsule wardrobe for all family members/blog/work planning.  R e a l l y trying to embrace the portion of Proverbs 31 when it says, "She gets up while it is still night" and "She sets about her work vigorously."  I fail miserably at this in general, but there is a fresh school year upon us, right?

6 am
Finally, light to read the word!  Nothing like reading the bible by the ocean with a good cup of coffee!๐Ÿ˜

7 am
Good company waking' up!  The Mr.'s allergic reaction has made a turn for the worst๐Ÿ˜ข  He's heading to urgent care.  For some reason he wanted to go alone๐Ÿ’๐Ÿป

8 am
Breakfast with the brothers๐Ÿ’™

9 am
Let's head to the sunshine!

10 am
Little brother is just too sweet today...

11 am
Lunch & the ever unpopular...nap time 

12 pm 
The Mr. finally came back with meds & bad news.  He ended up with an infection from the allergic reaction:/  No sun for him today.  He fell asleep with the boys & (though not good circumstances) I went to the pool ALONE.  Not happened since before I got married 7 years ago!  HOW. DO. I. DO. THIS?

1 pm
My Dad joined & shares everyone is still sleeping.  So much for peace and quite.  He looks like Sparky Polasky (Bring It On choreographer?  Anyone?) in his all black jeans, shirt, and work boots sitting by the pool at the beach.  All while playing his favorite song, "Made in Japan," from HeeHaw at top notch volume, while everyone at the pool glares.  
Maybe I'll go check on the boys...๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ™ˆ

2 pm
Boys STILL sleeping!  #thankyouoils
Hubs is up & ready to do naturally-we go to get our
(car)oil changed + to mail eBay happy mail ๐Ÿ˜‰

3 pm
Boys are finally UP!
Bieber jams + getting ready for early dinner๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿผ

4 pm
Dinner @ Dee's Hang Out ๐Ÿ˜›
Mock bang bang shrimp for the win๐Ÿ‘Š๐Ÿผ

5 pm
Rollar skating is a logical idea...right?  Camster lasted 5 minutes.  
He looked like a new born deer learning to walk๐Ÿ˜‚...
Buh-BYE 30 buckaroos๐Ÿ˜
On the bright side, we all got super cool white socks...

6 pm
We totally redeemed ourselves with the arcade...(for all three boys๐Ÿ˜)
*Until Cam walked out crying because we weren't going to go bowling or go ride go carts next.  ๐Ÿ™„

7 pm
Winding down with a drawing session, which is becoming quite the favorite thing around here✍๐Ÿฝ "Draw Josie!"  is Conley's favorite request (Papa's cat๐Ÿฑ RIP)

8 pm
Turn on the "confuser" (aka Cam's interpretation of "diffuser") & diffuse the Sleepize, 
it's time for a good nights rest!
What??  Judge us hard, y'all   Skate one lap around the rink with a 70ish lb 4 year old on your arm & chase a one year old around an arcade for an hour, & you'd sleep like another person's baby, too!

Monday, August 7, 2017

My Capsule Wardrobe || Summer

So, I'm t o t a l l y late in curating my summer capsule wardrobe...
but that doesn't mean that I haven't been thinking about next year!

And what better time to purchase quality summer pieces than the end of the season when everything goes on sale?๐Ÿ˜‰  Plus, I love that a lot of pieces can transition me into the fall!

Here's what I've done with the capsule wardrobe steps so far:

1.  Purge & Pile
cleaned out my closet! 
In the process of selling the things I decided I didn't "love"...

2.  Make a List/Pin/& Plan
after I gutted everything, I made a list in my little notebook of seasons/a pie chart of my daily clothing needs which I found were:
 "50% mom comfy clothes,  40% work/"out and about" clothes/10% church) which I shared here.  Therefore, yes-tees and jeans were at the top of my list...  Then, I hit Pinterest & cleaned (am STILL cleaning out as free time happens) my seasonal boards to only consist of styles I have or want to invest in.  
IN PROCESS  ๐Ÿ‘‰๐Ÿฝ  3.Figure Budget & Pre-shop
Over here trying to find "my style," the patterns/colors that I am drawn to, utilizing most of the things I already own & putting it together to make the right outfits!

You can find a lot more in depth steps if you'd like, but they overwhelm me.  So, this is my interpretation & how I went about curating a capsule in a way that best met my needs๐Ÿ˜˜.
*Most tutorials suggest doing a "fashion show" (try on outfits/take pictures of outfits you can put together), which I didn't do <<yet>>, but I guess packing for the beach with what is left has been a form of being creative & putting things together.  
P.S. My boys are w a y more stylish than I could ever think of being...see below๐Ÿ‘‡๐Ÿผ
After purging my closet, (we're talking two different consignment shops, taking the rest home, taking pictures of each piece, and uploading to Facebook yard sale/eBay pages... with two small children to plan around-mostly this happened during their nap time or late at night) I finally feel like I earned enough money to start adding a few pieces now!  I wanted to share with you some of the things I'd like to add to complete my summer capsule.  Don't worry (like you are๐Ÿ˜‚), Fall is hot on it's trail.  It's my favorite season to dress for!๐Ÿ‚
sandals || tee || shorts || suit || hat || cardigan || sneakers || blouse
*Yes, you need sweaters in the summer...go inside anywhere & you'll freeze to death!
AND these items don't necessarily "go together"...they are just pieces I need to get outfits similar to below.
Outfits I find myself gravitating toward for late summer/early fall...
Seems like I have a boho/athleisure type style when it comes to the outfits I saved & the type of clothes I already own?  Idk.  
I think the pinning & pre-shopping part is my favorite!
Obviously, right?  ๐Ÿ™ˆ

But the great thing now, is that I know the characteristics of the pieces I love, what makes me feel happy and beautiful, and what I still need in order to complete my capsule!  I have also found that I have an extra picky eye to make sure I only buy the things I know I'll want to wear for a couple of seasons instead of impulse buying & ending up with something I'll wear one time!  Anybody else do that?๐Ÿ˜

P.S. I no longer have a personal laptop๐Ÿ˜ž. Read here to see why.  That's why things have been kind of quiet around here lately...Pray for a Christmas miracle, as I really need one to come into my life soon - not just for blogging-but work, too!  
Until then, I'll be stealing my  mom's every chance I get๐Ÿ˜  Sorry, mother dear.
Wednesday, July 26, 2017

10 Ideas for Beating Summer Boredom

I will never claim to have a clue, or be the best at things like budgeting, planning, entertaining, or "momming" as they call it these days.  In fact, I think I'm probably the worst at it!

But I H A T E to hear the word "bored" in my house. 
 I am always on the hunt & trying to think of ways to pass the day that don't involve the ever popular, always desirable- iPad.  There are so many things to do and see in a days time!  Why sit around (though it can be quite luxurious sometimes!) & let your kiddos destroy your home like an F5 tornado, when we can go out & explore-finding ways to have fun & make memories together?๐Ÿ˜Ž  I guess I'm sounding a bit like Mr. Rogers now, but y'all, I like that sweet man. #sorrynotsorry
My boys are 1.5 & 4 years old.  Full of LIFE & not at all short on energy.  We've found ourselves in two places this summer:  Our new home, which is a larger city full of playgrounds, parks, and splash pads only a few minutes away -OR- our smaller hometown, where we are surrounded by lakes, creeks, and big yards of grass to run & play.  
Our only problem in keeping us from all this fun...has been: the HOT sun.

Y u c k !
Somedays, unless you get up early or venture out late, that sun is just too hot to endure!
EVEN in water.  Say what?  YES. 
 And that's where this list has come into play...
Here are a few things to do (mostly) indoors when the sun tries to steal all the fun:

one. drawing contest
Let them pick a theme.  Get your paper and art media, pick a non-biased judge (but who is ever not biased with a child?  I ALWAYS got honorable mention)-ready, set, go!  
Who will win first place?

two.  backyard waterpark
Okay, it isn't indoors & I think almost everybody does this...but I'll mention it anyway!
If you're like us, & don't have a pool in your backyard, grab an inflatable one, a slip n' slide, a sprinkler, a couple balls, buckets, and cars (in my case) & enjoy your private little backyard oasis๐Ÿ˜‰  Don't forget some good summer tunes to play in the background.๐Ÿ‘Œ๐Ÿฝ
three.  sock ice skating
Layer 334 pairs of socks...okay, maybe three.  Find a smooth surface in the house.  And wa-lah!  Indoor ice skating.  Just make note, I hold no responsibility for broken bones or Marsha Brady noses.๐Ÿ™…๐Ÿป

four.  blanket fort + movie
One of our favorite things to do is get in the teepee or build a blanket fort, turn up the AC, light the fire, and put on a Christmas or Halloween movie.  Instant cozy feels.

five. create a restaurant!
Grab some paper, crayons, & magazines.  Let your kid choose a name for their restaurant (Naturally, Cam chose "The Green Arrow Robot Restaurant" ๐Ÿค–).  Then let them decide what kind of food they want to serve and how much it will cost.  Cut pictures of food out of magazines and create a menu.  Give them a notepad & crayon & put them to work!  You could do this with other businesses as salon, tire shop, clothing store.  So many fun places to imagine!  

six.  glow in the dark fun
Turn all the lights out, put on your kids favorite music (Moana, anyone?), and bump a bunch of Dollar General glow in the dark balloons around.  

seven.  build a cardboard creation
Two years ago, I had a large order from IKEA delivered.  Not only did we get great furniture, but we had materials for a masterpiece.  We made a Haunted Mansion in August out of cardboard that year.  After the taping & drawing...we even dug out the halloween decorations & spooky music to give it that "special touch."  So much fun, you guys.
๐Ÿ‘‰๐ŸฝI'm pretty sure any home improvement store (like Lowes or Home Depot) would be glad to share some cardboard with you if you ask!

eight.  indoor matchbox carwash
I think boys & girls like matchbox cars equally.  At least, that's what I've heard?  If not, you could totally channel a beauty salon for dolls for little girls.  Any who...around here, we fill a pan with water & suds for all the matchbox cars.  Then, it's up to the boys to scrub them clean at "the car wash."  Not only do the toys get clean, but we have entertainment, too!  
Just make sure you have a water friendly surface with a towel handy...

nine.  books + boardgames
In my opinion, our society totally downplays the value of a good book or boardgame.  I love to use them in therapy as a motivation to work.  With a book, we develop a theme to work with in our activities, with games we alternate turns with sound/language goal practice.  I imagine this would work well with homework, too!  But I'm not in that phase of life yet..."can't wait"...#onemoreyear ๐Ÿ™€"
๐Ÿ‘‰๐ŸฝI LOVE Clue.  And so does Cam.  He has no IDEA how to play, but OH the giggles I get from hearing him wing it & instruct me how to play.

ten.  recipes
Let your kiddos pick their favorite recipe out of a kid-friendly book!  Maybe it's a fruit pizza or jello jigglers.  We love making our favorite things out of pancakes.  Use your imagination & have fun together๐Ÿ˜‰

And that's "all I got." 
 Other than, never forsake a nap...AND 
๐Ÿ™‹๐Ÿป I've done that for far too long.๐Ÿ™‹๐Ÿป 
 It truly is a mama's happy hour & time to get ready for the next shift.
  What about you guys?  What does your family do for (mostly) indoor fun?  
P.S. P-r-e-tty sure I am always scrambling for ideas like this in the winter, too!