Monday, December 11, 2017

Mama Said They'd Be Days Like This...

I have a confession to make.
Somedays I wake up wondering: "
what happened to the two angel baby boy's that I brought home from the hospital???"
Those sweet faces I share on Facebook or post on instagram.  Friends, sometimes I feel like such a failure in life or the worst parent in the world after I spend a day at home with them or take them out somewhere.
They used to give me the biggest gummy grin just by giving them a high pitched, "hey, baby!"  They would cry just to be close to me, sit and snuggle, or just stare and smile at me. They didn't have to be entertained 24/7 & all they wanted was to be held or loved on.
Now, it's what can you buy me?  What can you do for me?  Take me here, give me that, go away now.
And they're not even close to being teenagers!  They are 2 and 4!

Their number one hobby is to fight...  Punching.  Pinching.  Scratching.  
And stealing each other toys.  Throwing nail polish in my face (see below).

If I say "don't do that please," they cut their eyes, the evil grinch grin grows on their face, and they will do it or die just to see my reaction and what I will do.

Favorite words Mama tells them NOT to say:  Poopy head.  I hate you.  It's dead.  OR Oh my God. Whatever they can find that will hurt my feelings, upset me, or that will put them in the position of punishing them-they are all over it.

I let them do or have one thing, they forget it the next minute when they see something else they want to do and when I say no...  all they remember is that I said "No."

And I've assisted in making them that way.  And if there is anything in this world that will make you feel like less of a person, it's to see your children act in such a way.  All those days of "well, I will make my kids do this...or my kids will do that..."  The days when you envision your kids always listening, behaving perfectly, & doing as you say...Those days laugh in your face.  (Or mine anyway!)

This reminded me of something.

A long long time ago, God created two of the most perfect things he'd ever created.  And, by considering what he did for all of us by allowing his son to die on the cross for our sins, I'd say he loved them more than he had ever loved anything else in the world but more.  A love we can only come close to experiencing through our own children.  But the minute they took that apple, God's heart was hurt.  His children had chosen sin, over choosing to do what was right.  Before choosing the path he knew was best for them.

You know what?  I mirror my kids behavior every single stinkin day...I do these things E V E R Y D A Y to my Heavenly Father.  I hurt him by not making to time read my Bible, or by turning on a tv show or logging on to my computer instead of talking to him.  I pray about something, desiring to lay it down at his feet, but pick it up again & try to "fix it" myself.  He blesses me with one thing or answers a prayer, & I go along asking for the next thing before a thank you hits my lips.  

And at some point, you know he's like, "Cassidy!  Just let me take it from here!  Just listen to me!  Why can't you just listen & know that I know what's best?!"  It would be nice for you to just be content at some point in your life.  It would be nice for a thank you.  Those spills & accidents pictured above are exactly what I create so many times in my life when I try to carry my own burdens and load or when I think I know whats best or what prayer He needs to answer.  

I'm one of those people that think God has a sense of humor.
Wait, I know he does by the two funny little humans that he blessed me to raise.  
I just pray that when he speaks to me through little seasons of life such as this, I listen!  And I hope I'm more sensitive to the fact that, in those moments that I feel unloved, taken advantage of, or like a broken record nobody listens to...I will be sure to check up & make sure that I've not made my Heavenly Father feel that same way!   And even in the times that I break His heart, He finds a way to forgive me & provides a fresh new start...
What an example to a mommy in the trenches of motherhood!💞
Happy Monday, sweet friends.

Friday, December 1, 2017

Thanksgiving 2017 Photo Dump

Our first Thanksgiving as the host family is in the books!  We survived & made many new memories along the way.  I made my first pumpkin pie, the boys found the Peanuts float in the Macy's parade, Cade googled how to carve the turkey, & we played the most hilarious game of “Heads Up” the night before everyone went home.  Oh, & this will, with no question, always be remembered as the “Thanksgiving of the Poopyheads,” because...that’s all our 2 year old will say now.  That and “I hate <insert everything here>” (thanks Little “Drummy” Boy), and it’s dead or stupid.  

But in all seriousness, how good God is to allow us to all see another Thanksgiving together?

the sleeping man couch

Cade & I had the fun of taking this little fireball to a few stops on Black Friday.  
Surprisingly, I think he just loved having his daddy & mommy to himself for a change...
he didn't even mind the shopping-he was so sweet💙  OR say poppyhead every breath!

The quiet days after...
AND we can breathe!  The house was a wreck but everything fell together & we aren't on the air mattress anymore😁

I hope you & your family all had a wonderful Thanksgiving❤️
And, I'm a little late posting...but we are on day three of our 5th annual Christmas Photo Challenge.  I love to see how everyone interprets the word of the fun!  I think it (bear with me-I'm corny) spreads such cheer to see everyone enjoying the sweet days of December together!  I love it.

Wednesday, November 15, 2017

Thanksgiving Fun

I'm getting so excited about this next week, guys!

Not only is my Mr. coming home this weekend, but we are almost a week away from Thanksgiving!  This year, we are planning a low key Thanksgiving, just staying at home & having our family over.  I love the hustle and bustle of visiting everyone in our families, but I am excited for a little change.  I also know we still have Christmas for that!  
Am I crazy for being a little excited that Cade & I get to give a whirl at fixing our first ever Thanksgiving meal?  I’m also looking forward to giving our boys a chance to soak in the day & enjoy the little things like the parade & dog show (which Conley will FLIP over!) without trying to watch while  crammin a little breakfast, getting ready, and being at the first house in time. 
 We may actually get down & eat an entire meal all at one time!  No saving room for three other meals😉  
In honor of the upcoming turkey day, I figured I would try to find a few things to put us in the Thanksgiving spirit around here, so here goes...  

peanuts thanksgiving party 
pop some popcorn (I've recently learned this is probably actually something they served at the first thanksgiving!), with some jelly beans + pretzels on the side for a viewing of A Charlie Brown Thanksgiving.  We did it here in 2014, & I think it's time for a repeat for Con.

jess in new girl wearing her thanksgiving pjs
FYI : they're sis and I already tried to find a pair😂 

nyc + thanksgiving

if you're a gossip girl fan like me, it's a must to go back & at least watch the thanksgiving episodes💁🏻

 parade prep

throw a mini parade planned by your kiddos.  Let them line up the "floats" & you commentate the line up + find a theme song to go along with the fun.  They will more than likely be extra excited to see the parade on tv thanksgiving morning😎

playing dress-up

whether that's in reference to your home or yo' self & fam!  I love planning what our little family will be wearing for the fun holiday months.  

I think I'm pretty boring.  Every holiday season it seems like i gravitate toward chunky knit sweaters and cognac colored shoes.  As for home love...I am generally all Christmas crazy, but this year, I only have the tree up-pumpkins & leaves everywhere else!  Here are a few of my current cravings besides turkey & dressing...

boots | graphic tee | cardigan | mule | surplice sweater| tapered candles 

* ALL Old Navy is 40% off!!

ps i'll just drool over all the pottery barn kid peanuts stuff for thanksgiving😩

Give me all the recipes!
I've been a cooking sponge lately.  Loving looking through Pinterest + old Martha Stew's at all the recipes for turkey + dressing😍  Only me?  Mmmm k.

I've gotta stop now, friends.
In the words of Angels with Filthy Souls (come on guys...the Home Alone movie Kevin watches while family is away) "I could go on forever, baby!"

What gives you all the thanksgiving feels?  🤗🦃🙏🏽💕🍂